I've been sitting in the dirt
I've forgotten what im worth
Said that you'd be here last night
I'm trying to shake you from my skin
Clean up this mess i've been put in
I'm guessing you can't always win.

I'm sick of wishing you were near
You've gone your way, you've made it clear
Why do I feel you everywhere?

And I don't know how it's gonna be after this
Do we pretend these feelings don't exist at all
Or do we fall?

I drift away to a place
Another kind of life
Take away the pain
I create my paradise
Everything I've held
Has hit the wall
What used to be yours
Isn't yours at all.

Oh my permission to sin
You might have started my reckoning
I've got a reason now to bury him alive
Another little white lie.

I know what I feel and you feel it too
I dream of the first kiss and who'll make the first move
Who's gonna put their heart on the line
It could be me
It could be you, tonight.

I don't believe in love and I
I pull it to the wall
I tasted sweetness there to laugh so hard as it falls
And I could push you there if you don't stop me
Push you there if you don't stop me
Please stop me.

If I don't cry, Do you think I don't feel?
If I look away, it doesn't mean I don't see,
And just because I want someone when I'm alone,
Doesn't mean I'm helpless,
That I can't stand on my own.

Sitting in silence in bars after work
I've got nothing to add or contest
Can still kick a ball a hundred yards
We cling to bottles and memories of the past.

I still remember
how you looked that afternoon.
There was only you.
You said "it's just like a full moon".
Blood beats faster in our veins.

And I can see our days are becoming nights.
I could feel your heartbeat across the grass.
We should have run.
I would go with you anywhere.
I should have kissed you by the water.

If you want to know what makes me sad
Well it's hope, the endurance of faith
A battle that lasts a lifetime,
A fight that never ends.

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong.
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep.

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you.

Take a look around don't you see it?
See that you are the only real face in the room
No one here has a clue what you're feeling
Don't feel bad keep your sadness alive.

I've seen enough now
to know that beautiful things
don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
to know this beautiful place
isn't everything they say.

They say evil comes disguised
Like the city of angels
I'm walking towards the light.

I know it's not enough to say I'm wrong,
You know that I will miss you now you're gone.
I know it's not your life to see this through,
Just know that in my heart it beats for you.

But if you fall back into my life,
I'd spend every night waking up to the beat I hear inside
Telling me to be your only one.

And we're gonna risk it all for the weekend
Cause I've been needing this time off and everybody's drinking
You get excited, you can't hide it when you hit the floor
The after party won't get started till bout three or four
So when you see me from across the room, boy you know what to do
Can you get me in the mood?

I felt like I would learn to fly the pattern you were aiming for
You feel like time is not all necessary, but my mind would
I come around so much less without you, without you
I can't breathe.

So why don't we trace the footsteps back into our past with the ones we've lost?
Too many bad mistakes were made
No one should have to take the fall for it, when it's our life to live.

Found out the way that he tasted
Then he ripped the seams right from her lips
Never thinking the first time that they met, would be the last she saw of him.

I am watching over you from the stars
Don't be scared, I know exactly where you are
And there's a piece of me and it's burning in your heart
Even death could never tear us apart.

You know you messed things up, that's how you lost my trust
And now you're lost and it's all because you were not strong enough.

Nothing's important right now besides something beautiful laying face down
Bury your eyes deep in the pillows of wanting more than something that's capable
Nothing's important right now besides someone suitable being left out
Bury our bodies so deep in the sheets of wanting more than we really need.

You know you're just so sure of wanting more, but nobody has a clue
You party with a secret smile, doesn't that give you
This taste is bitter except when you finish, all done and lying in bed
This isn't too selfish, right?

And we're making out faster than we had planned on
And you're having doubts so I have come prepared to
Take over and doubt of both of our hands
I will prove to you that we're overdue and hopefully you understand.

Hey pretty baby I saw that you like to smile
You know that it takes a while, to take some risks
And I don't think that I could ever get another chance like
With a murderous taste upon my lips, never really made much sense
And such a gentle sin is this, made up for time we had spent
Overdue in a place we never knew, and in a place we'd never been
I'd rather be alone and love to be forgotten.

I am no masterpiece where innocence is painted green.
Isn't it strange to think that you created all of me?
Done by the hands of a broken artist.
You painted black where my naked heart is.
I finally know what wrong is.
Now I finally know that you bleed for nothing.
Carved like a stone with your hands still shaking.
On display through a soul still breaking.
Aren't you proud you're the one that made me?

How hard should I fall
Before it's my turn to be heard.
How much pain should I show on my face
Before you listen to a word.
How bad should I hurt?
How much is enough?

Choose a destiny to live by
If you wanna live or die or fight
And only one side wins
And what I think of this I don't know
It's not that I'm afraid of dying,
It's just, I'm so afraid to live.

Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the window...
That night he caged her.
Bruised and broke her.
He struggled closer.
Then he stole her.
Violet wrists and then her ankles.
Silent Pain.
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams.

Why are some girls so naive?
He didn't unbutton your blouse to see
A better view of your heart.

Well try to find a place to sleep,
it's going on days, that we've been awake
A sadness that I've never seen
I said your name, and you, looked the other way.

Because these are my last words
and this is my last breath
I'd give you everything
If there was something left
I have nothing left to prove
and I will live with my regrets
I'd give you everything
If there was something left.

Sleepless nights, painful goodbyes.
Who the hell was I kidding?
The room starts to spin,
all alone and bleeding once again.
Can you help me make this.. make this fucking end?

Just forget, all I ever wanted was to forget.
Bloodshot eyes and a starless sky.
Who the hell are we kidding?

We watch these days go by
The seasons changed and faded away,
and the the things I've learned to love grow old and die
no reason why, no reason why, no reason why, no reason why
cause life's too short to spend alone in misery
Everybody seems to look the same
I feel so alone and now my head is bowed in shame again,
so I look to the heart of the devil for answers.

Forgive and forget
It's just a memory
It wont get me very far this time
Is what I've done to you unforgivable?
Silence fills the room and I get the message.
Emptiness is all that's left this time.
Is what I meant to you that forgettable?

Faded pictures of the life that I once loved
With the flash, the moments gone
I gave up all I had for
Something that never brought me any comfort now
I've been lost too long.

Lost myself in an endless goodnight
Kept the time by the patterns of the streetlight
Couldn't get it right
I could never get it right
Sadly, this is a wasted conversation
Lost on you, lost on you
This is a test of my patience
Your blue eyes are so cruel
I can't escape all the things we said
I'm taking years off my life with the weight of regret
Now there's nothing left
There is nothing left to lose.

Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
Come into my life forever
The crumbled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own
Love is suicide.

The body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole
Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart
And you, you make me so I need to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect.

You're cinematic razor sharp
A welcome arrow through the heart
Under your skin feels like home
Electric shocks on aching bones.

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough.

I tried to tell you before I left
But I was screaming under my breath
You are the only thing that makes sense
Just ignore all this present tense
We need to feel breathless with love
And not collapse under its weight
I'm gasping for the air to fill
My lungs with everything I've lost.

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness.

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old
The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
Cause I need you to look into mine.